tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8876025621076336201.post974212758388869226..comments2023-07-22T08:34:08.016-04:00Comments on Moments of Pause: In a good place... Sometimes...Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09451958236636719292noreply@blogger.comBlogger6125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8876025621076336201.post-80187399532619660772011-10-27T17:52:35.678-04:002011-10-27T17:52:35.678-04:00Laura
I have felt sorry for myself many times...I ...Laura<br />I have felt sorry for myself many times...I cried reading this cause I feel the same way. I have always said that when I read your posts...it's as if I wrote them. I am almost 2 yrs into this journey and often wonder when it will get easier. I love reading your blog...thank you for words. Hugs to you.<br />Chrissy~Cayden's mamaChrissyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02626666735606164228noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8876025621076336201.post-71852702415927882802011-10-25T11:03:13.535-04:002011-10-25T11:03:13.535-04:00Hi honey...i miss you. I wondered if that feelin...Hi honey...i miss you. I wondered if that feeling ever went away and now that you have shared it I really appreciate that, because now I know what to expect. My current battle is a commercial on tv that blindsides me everytime, the barilla pasta sauce that flicks triplets right on the start of it and ends saying "everything is better together" and I find myself saying eff u to the screen damn pasta sauce people...but ... Its expected & will continue, I guess u r right, breathe in and breathe out until u can turn the page....love u xoxoxoNan & Mikehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04379229157112328310noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8876025621076336201.post-35379043739864690512011-10-25T09:06:33.694-04:002011-10-25T09:06:33.694-04:00Thank you...I needed to read this. Last week was ...Thank you...I needed to read this. Last week was incredibly difficult for me in this same regard. It is so helpful to know that I'm not alone in these feelings. Thank you for sharing so openly.Elizabethhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17335361779858539513noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8876025621076336201.post-46591554801023404172011-10-25T06:38:40.055-04:002011-10-25T06:38:40.055-04:00Oh Laura. I sometimes feel sorry for myself too. I...Oh Laura. I sometimes feel sorry for myself too. I think we're entitled to from time to time! But I know I also feel horribly ungrateful when I catch myself feeling jealous and angry and it so, so hard not to let the whole story come tumbling out sometimes.<br /><br />Last week I sat with J between two sets of girl twins as the toddler group. Neither of these mothers know that J is (or was? I'm never sure how to describe it) a twin too. And I listened to them talking about how stressful it all was, how special it all was. And I was SO envious and I couldn't help thinking that I could have done it, that I would loved to have tried. <br /><br />I think that twins are always going to sting a little for me, no matter how hard I try and think about it rationally. I too wish it wasn't that way but I have accepted that I am only human and that I can't always rise above my emotions. You aren't on your own xoCatherine Whttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01618295389400457254noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8876025621076336201.post-75666716173589871282011-10-24T23:05:54.689-04:002011-10-24T23:05:54.689-04:00Laura,
Did I ever tell you about how my best fri...Laura, <br /><br />Did I ever tell you about how my best friend from high school (who went thru her first pregnancy during my twin pregnancy with Chloe & Zoe) showed up on my door step on my 40th birthday to share with me the "good news" that she was pregnant with twins?? These are the same twins she had a "perfect" pregnancy with, drove herself to the hospital to deliver - and delivered naturally. (Heavy sigh) <br /><br />Did I ever tell you about when Chloe went to preschool and after the first year I was trying to decide whether to keep her back a year or not - since she has an October birthday and I knew I would keep her back a year before starting kindergarten) . . . when I considered her doing a second year of two-morning preschool, instead of moving to three-morning, I quickly reconsidered when I found out there was a little girl named Zoe who would be in that class. There was no way I could handle my Chloe being in preschool with a Zoe. I wasn't that strong.<br /><br />So, you're right -- sometimes jealousy hits. Sometimes sorrow overtakes my days. Sometimes I look at my three beautiful, talented and joy-filled living children and chastise myself for feeling sorry for myself and missing my four babies in Heaven. But, then, like you - I say, it's okay. I give myself permission to miss my babies and wonder "what-if" while still embracing the joy in my midst. <br /><br />((HUGS))<br />KellyKellyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16129351949858271530noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8876025621076336201.post-4503058515482112552011-10-24T22:46:20.853-04:002011-10-24T22:46:20.853-04:00oh Laura.......I so understand. I have struggled w...oh Laura.......I so understand. I have struggled with the same thing. You aren't alone. I beat myself up about feeling jealous and unhappy too but I have started to realise the same thing- they are still valid feelings and it does not make me a bad person. <br /><br />Did I ever tell you about the couple who moved to our church just as we both discovered being pregnant....only to then have this enormous hurt smack us in the face when they rang us breathlessly to tell us it was twins. It hurt to see all the gooing and gaaing over those girls- and still does from time to time. These girls are the same age as lily and sometimes even though we are in that good place too our nerves are stretched a little thin. I think there will always be an amnt of jealously at other people's twins somehow. Sarah BartlettAnonymousnoreply@blogger.com