Sunday, May 10, 2009

Mother's Day

Mother's Day.
I couldn't wait to celebrate it.
But then it was here. And he wasn't. And my Mother's Day was different than I had imagined. I sat in church, with my new baby, a corsage pinned on my blouse. I looked down the pew at my grandfather and he knew. He was looking at my son, tears streaming down his face. He knew. This Mother's Day was different than I imagined.

Was it different for you?

I have met women who wanted to be mothers, but couldn't. Friends who go to church every Sunday, except this one.
This Sunday.
This holiday.
Mother's Day.

And I understand.
Today I stood in church, surrounded by my children, my belly swollen with a new life growing inside of it, but I understood.
I wore his ring,
And I remembered.
I wore his ring,
And I remembered who gave me the new name- Mom.
I wore his ring,
And I remembered the tears flowing down his face.
Because he knew.
And he remembered.

Today I did. And a tear fell from my eye. His ring on my finger.
I remembered how I got here, my journey, his story, and I was thankful.

Thankful for the mothers with children beyond this world, with children who are missed, with children who are loved. Mothers who paved the way for my healing, who have given me strength, who have given me hope, who have given me reason.

And I remembered.

Happy Mother's Day my friends. No doubt your children are watching, so proud of the mothers who gave them life, who loved them, who carried them, and who remember them.

I love you.
I remember.

8 comments:

  1. Well it brought on tears no doubt! this was perfectly said and beautiful, there should be a specific mothers day card like this... yep, you captured it all.

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  2. How is it you always manage to say exactly what I feel. I remember the Mothers day after the twins were born, it was awful and it was my due date. The pain is really unbearable.
    Thanks for always remembering us all!

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  3. I remember, too. Every single one of them. Those who lived a short while, those who were here and then gone, those who were born still, those who were only a dream in a mom's heart. I remember them all... those with names, those without. Some we remember just by letters, like Baby E. But what's important is that we remember. Thanks for your beautiful writing to help us remember. God bless our angels.

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  4. Laura, your words are a beautiful Gift. Harmony told me about your blog and I immediately set about reading, each story so much my own........Thank you, I needed the tears but even more; I needed the connection. God has blessed you and in turn us with your Gifted insight.
    Jody D. Armstrong-Bashawaty

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  5. Dear Laura, I remember my first mothers day, which was unbearable because it was only 10 days after I lost me precious Nicholas. On every Mothers Day I always think of him, as well as all the other Mothers out there who's heart is breaking on this day.
    I have also sent you an email with photos of Andrew's name by the sea. I hope you like them. Please let me know if you haven't received them.
    Lots Of Love,
    Kay xxxx
    http://sweetasparadise.blogspot.com/

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  6. oh, my friend...your words touch me and so many others...i have said it before and i will say it again, you are truly amazing! i am so glad to have you in my life...thank you for being you and for being my friend...love you!

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  7. A mothers love...it always warms my heart and soul...we will forever remember all our babies here, there and yet to be.........hugs sheri

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  8. Dear Laura, I remember my first mothers day, which was unbearable because it was only 10 days after I lost me precious Nicholas. On every Mothers Day I always think of him, as well as all the other Mothers out there who's heart is breaking on this day.
    I have also sent you an email with photos of Andrew's name by the sea. I hope you like them. Please let me know if you haven't received them.
    Lots Of Love,
    Kay xxxx
    http://sweetasparadise.blogspot.com/

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