Tuesday, August 25, 2009

The Rain

I have had nights like this.
Nights when my mind won't stop.
And I don't know what it's saying- but it just won't rest.
On nights like these I would get out my journal-
And the words would come- without my choosing which direction they would go.

Nights like this come when I hear about the rain.
Like when she died of cancer- at 10.
So full of grace, and strength and beauty
And my mind wouldn't stop.
But the words came without my knowing.
Maddison.
And then I'd feel a peace come over me- flow over me.
But- oh the rain.

Nights like this, when we lived through our rain.
A mother diagnosed with cancer.
A son we held and kissed as we said goodbye forever.
A father diagnosed with cancer- taken before the year was out.
Our rain.
And I wrote and wrote and wrote.
The peace would come and flow, but the rain would fall- staining the pages I wrote upon.
Oh the rain.

It's raining tonight.
Not outside my window-
but inside my mind.

I have been thinking about her.
The diagnosis-
The thoughts-
The feelings-
And I don't know.
My words- stuck.

And then I learned of more rain.
More rain for her family.
Their 8 year old.
Gone.
Their rain.
And I'm so sorry.
So very, very sorry.

There is no direction- no course-
A meandering-
Thoughts-
Feelings-
Sorrow.

I'm praying for the rain to stop.
For her rain to stop.
For your rain to stop.

For peace to flow again.
God, let it flow.

7 comments:

  1. Your heart is heavy with rain. I am so sorry for your sorrow. The older I get the more rain I see. Somedays I just want to be young and carefree again. We need more rainbows.

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  2. Hugs to you...I agree with Debbie, we definitely need more rainbows in our days.

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  3. Only a heart that has known a lot of rain could write these words. Praying for the rain to bring a brighter day

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  4. I'm sorry your heart is so heavy. We do need more rainbows ... all of us do.

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  5. Amen to more rainbows. We all deserve them.

    Such beautiful, heart wrenching, poetic words.

    Thank you for sharing your innermost thoughts.

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  6. Laura,

    Such a beautiful post. I want to thank you for sharing with us so candidly. I've nominated you for an Honest Scrap award. Check out my blog for details.

    Big hugs!

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  7. Only a heart that has known a lot of rain could write these words. Praying for the rain to bring a brighter day

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