Sunday, September 6, 2009

He knows.

It's September and my heart is heavy.
Torn.
Just like it was 6 years ago.
10:35pm- My heart broke when I heard the silence
10:36pm- My heart grew when I heard the screams
Torn.

And last year-
September-
Our little spark disappeared.
Gone.
Torn again.

And I can feel it coming.
The heaviness of the dreams- the memories-
Torn.
September again.
And I can feel it coming.

Today in church my heart was heavy as I heard my husband strum his guitar leading the congregation in the song, "I can only imagine"- and I could feel my eyes swell at the thought. Of meeting my Savior. The one who helped me off the floor- so many, many times and wonder if I'd also see them- Standing at His side.
But I don't know.

The sermon- about heaven- and the pastor began-
"What is heaven like? No one really knows..."
To which my six year old son whispered with a smile, "My brother knows."

Six years he's lived without his twin.
He's so strong and he doesn't even know it.
It's all he's ever known.
So strong in his faith.
So strong in his assurance.
So secure in his peace.

Heaven?
He's right.
He knows.

12 comments:

  1. First I am so sorry for your loss and second it brought tears to my eyes at your sons innocence and assurance that his brother knows. Sending hugs your way!

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  2. The faith of a child is truly a treasure. It's so easy for them to just believe that our angels are happy with Jesus. Oh, to be a child again! Lots of love and hugs. Praying for your heavy heart

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  3. Wow Laura, from the mouths of babes and to think he was listening while he was writing and drawing. Such an insight from a little person. Prayers your way.

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  4. How precious that your son knows his brother knows what Heaven is really like. I love the innocent things children say about our babies that have left us too early. I wish adults found it as easy to talk about our sweet ones as children do. Hugs to you. xx

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  5. oh- gulp....that song-gulp- your precious son...you know Laura- I think he's right. His brother knows, what a blessed assurance he's given his brother :-)xx

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  6. WOW Laura, that is truly amazing.
    What a beautiful thing for Joey to say!
    That is so sweet and he is so very right!

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  7. children just "get it" don't they...they always amaze me...that was beautiful to read. You are a blessed woman Laura. xo

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  8. Every time I read your posts I well up, how do you do that?! How precious for your son to say that, it for sure would help pick me up off the floor alot of those dark days. He does know. Hugs, Nan

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  9. Every time I read your posts I well up, how do you do that?! How precious for your son to say that, it for sure would help pick me up off the floor alot of those dark days. He does know. Hugs, Nan

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  10. How precious that your son knows his brother knows what Heaven is really like. I love the innocent things children say about our babies that have left us too early. I wish adults found it as easy to talk about our sweet ones as children do. Hugs to you. xx

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  11. Wow Laura, from the mouths of babes and to think he was listening while he was writing and drawing. Such an insight from a little person. Prayers your way.

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