Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Two!

Two lines!

There must be a mistake, I had forgotten when my last period was, but it felt like it had been a while. It must be a mistake- so much so that in the coming days I would take a total of six pregnancy tests (just to be sure). I remember the girl who worked at the CVS shook her head and said, "I'm sorry but if you've already had one that says positive, you probably are." I remember correcting her and saying, "No! This would be a good thing!"

Two lines!
At that moment I started to dream. I was going to be a mom and my life at that moment changed. I looked in the mirror and I swore I looked different and I wondered if others could see it too. I wondered if they looked at me and could hear my mind as every few seconds it screamed, YOU'RE GOING TO BE A MOM!!

Two lines!
I kept my news quiet until it no longer let me. I was sick morning, noon and night and nothing stayed down. It wasn't long before my coworkers noticed 'the flu' I had wasn't going away. One of my friends said, "I bet you're going to have twins!" Ya right, I thought. This is just the way my pregnancy was going to go and truthfully, being sick didn't bother me- it was just proof to me- yes, someone was growing inside of me.

Two lines!
I had lost 13 pounds that first trimester which was a lot on my five foot two frame. I was sick, but so happy. With each flush I remember saying, thank you God, thank you baby.

Two lines!
I remember us walking hand in hand to the doctor as others smiled probably aware as to why a husband would be accompanying his wife into the OBGYN. I remember my husband standing at my side and what we saw took our breath away. There on the screen was a little peanut with little arm and leg buds and in the very center there was a flickering light- a heartbeat that made mine stop. Suddenly it was official, if the getting sick every day didn't cement it, this did.

Two lines!
The doctor took pictures and printed them out for us- the first pictures of our child and she printed a lot! The doctor made a comment about how full my bladder was and I remember thinking we must be getting done soon but still she kept looking for something...
-or someone...

Two lines!
And then she said, "Look, there's the other heartbeat." My eyes widened as my husband said, "Why does our baby have two heartbeats?" She said, "There's the other baby." I looked to my husband as the words she spoke registered in his mind. His face went white and I remember the doctor quickly pulling a chair for him to sit in.

Two lines!
I couldn't wipe the smile off of my face. On the ride home I told him, "We're having two babies." "I know."
"We're having two babies."
"I know."
I said it over and over and over again until it sounded real. We got in the house as our dogs greeted us. "I'm having two babies." I told them.

Two lines!

Two babies!

Two.

3 comments:

  1. It is amazing finding out your pregnant with twins, there is something special about it! I can so relate with Kevin & your husband. I called Kevin, and said "We are going to be a family of five" he said "you're having five babies", he totally was not counting the two of us or Drew. Once he realized I meant twins, I tink his heart stopped (while working ontop of an elevator) and his first words were "I am stopping at the gas station on the way home, and applying for a second job" LOL!

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  2. So beautifully written Laura. I felt that strange mixture of elation and disbelief. Two!

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  3. It is amazing finding out your pregnant with twins, there is something special about it! I can so relate with Kevin & your husband. I called Kevin, and said "We are going to be a family of five" he said "you're having five babies", he totally was not counting the two of us or Drew. Once he realized I meant twins, I tink his heart stopped (while working ontop of an elevator) and his first words were "I am stopping at the gas station on the way home, and applying for a second job" LOL!

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